Perfectionism Can Be Imperfect Too

Looking at the date of the last blog entry is another reminder of how busy life has been... and the reminder that with every change in the life's direction... adjustment to expectations and daily routine are inevitable.

Attended an in-house workshop on competencies at work yesterday. Initially I had expected myself to sleep through it like most seminars and workshops... surprisingly the workshop was very insightful and kept me up from morning till late afternoon.

It started to dawn on me during the workshop that one of my biggest incompetence right now is the inability to learn on the fly... and the cause is due to me being a perfectionist and being adverse to risk. How true! Very often, I want to get things right even from the start... because I don't want to make myself look bad infront of others or disappoint myself. As a result, fear will engulf me whenever I'm faced with a new situation... but will quickly jump in to try and solve the issue without fully appreciating the cause... just so that I can live up to being efficient. At the end of it... I make mistakes... taking me even farther away from being perfect.