Daddy fell sick over the weekend. Running a bit of fever and tummy was giving him hell. I believe it wasn't due to food poisoning but more because of the weather and hence suffered from stomach flu. Noticed that alot of people around came down with stomach upset for no real reason. Must take good care of ourselves... lots of fluid, lots of vitamins and lots of rest to fight the bug. Let's hope that Daddy will recover soon despite the long hours that he will be keeping for the rest of the week... he will be engaged in meetings from Monday to Friday and each meeting will last for an average of 12 hours.
With Daddy's uncle in town... the last weekend was a busy one (which probably made it felt a bit too short). We had a barbecue on Saturday and Japanese food on Sunday... and of course Daddy had to stay off most of the food... just in case.
The weekend was rather fun though... but Mummy got a bit down after the day ended. It would have been better if you were around.
Monday 28 June 2004
Tuesday 22 June 2004
A Tad Too Much
Last Sunday was Father's Day... Mummy didn't forget to wish Daddy a Happy Father's Day on behalf of you boys.
We took Grandpa (Daddy's Daddy that is) out for dinner last night at Palm Beach to have his favourite crispy duck. Obviously Granny was protesting initially because it is not exactly very healthy... but then again sometimes we must learn to let go. Going to have another big dinner (again) with my Dad this Sunday. Daddy's uncle and family from the states just flew in today around midnight... so we are going to have lots of food for dinner tonight again. Hmmm... I wonder how many more kilos I will be putting on. Mummy has put on 4 kg since the wedding... that is bad because I have never never hit the big 5 on the weighing machine in my entire life.
Uncle Brian accidentally dropped his car key yesterday (again... yes again) and for that Granny was damn upset with him for being careless. But lucky for him... his colleague found his key and of course we found out (or at least suspect) that he might be seeing someone new... that at least made Granny a little happier.
I didn't know who leaked out the news that I was pregnant. During the fire drill yesterday alot of colleagues from my division came to me and told me that I can actually be exempted from it. I didn't have a choice but to "declare" that I had a miscarriage... I didn't know how I got the courage to shrug it off just like that at that point in time. But after that it got to me and engulfed me slowly... the sadness hit me again. I miss you both...
We took Grandpa (Daddy's Daddy that is) out for dinner last night at Palm Beach to have his favourite crispy duck. Obviously Granny was protesting initially because it is not exactly very healthy... but then again sometimes we must learn to let go. Going to have another big dinner (again) with my Dad this Sunday. Daddy's uncle and family from the states just flew in today around midnight... so we are going to have lots of food for dinner tonight again. Hmmm... I wonder how many more kilos I will be putting on. Mummy has put on 4 kg since the wedding... that is bad because I have never never hit the big 5 on the weighing machine in my entire life.
Uncle Brian accidentally dropped his car key yesterday (again... yes again) and for that Granny was damn upset with him for being careless. But lucky for him... his colleague found his key and of course we found out (or at least suspect) that he might be seeing someone new... that at least made Granny a little happier.
I didn't know who leaked out the news that I was pregnant. During the fire drill yesterday alot of colleagues from my division came to me and told me that I can actually be exempted from it. I didn't have a choice but to "declare" that I had a miscarriage... I didn't know how I got the courage to shrug it off just like that at that point in time. But after that it got to me and engulfed me slowly... the sadness hit me again. I miss you both...
Friday 18 June 2004
Who Knows
After days of agonising over my missing bonus... finally got it resolved yesterday. Though it was done under the covers... realised that it was because they have failed to give me my increment since April and they need to adjust my salary first and base my bonus on that. Gonna get a lump sum payment of the bonus and back-pay by end of this month... hopefully... otherwise they are probably going to tell me that its another computer glitch. Do I really look that dumb to them?
Have a rough idea what Daddy is giving me as birthday pressie... he accidentally left his credit card statement out in the open on the table. Muwahahahah and he claimed that I was sly. I think he is worse... I made a wild guess which was right earlier on but he claimed that I got it wrong. Three more weeks to go... looking forward to my birthday... and by that I meant the break and not the growing old part.
The weather has been pretty bad lately... I think I am going to melt due to the heat. Its giving me dizzy spells... the bloated feeling and just don't feel too good on the whole. Hmmmm... sounds like the symptoms of pregnancy... bah.... whatever it is I can use it to "threaten" Daddy for a while before my next period comes around. Have been telling him for the past few days not to make me upset cos I might be preggie... muwahahahaha... ok I admit I am bad.
Goodness... feeling damn hungry right now. Need to endure it for another hour or so for my lunch break. Hunger overcame me last evening just ten minutes before knocking off... ended up rushing to McDonalds to grab some fries to keep me alive before dinner time. Unfortunately spilled the whole cup of lemon lime juice in the car... shoot!!! Damn that hunger of mine. Hey isn't that another symptom of pregnancy... ahahahahah... okay I shall stop making another wild guess. Been making alot of wild guesses for the past one week... but then again who knows right?
Have a rough idea what Daddy is giving me as birthday pressie... he accidentally left his credit card statement out in the open on the table. Muwahahahah and he claimed that I was sly. I think he is worse... I made a wild guess which was right earlier on but he claimed that I got it wrong. Three more weeks to go... looking forward to my birthday... and by that I meant the break and not the growing old part.
The weather has been pretty bad lately... I think I am going to melt due to the heat. Its giving me dizzy spells... the bloated feeling and just don't feel too good on the whole. Hmmmm... sounds like the symptoms of pregnancy... bah.... whatever it is I can use it to "threaten" Daddy for a while before my next period comes around. Have been telling him for the past few days not to make me upset cos I might be preggie... muwahahahaha... ok I admit I am bad.
Goodness... feeling damn hungry right now. Need to endure it for another hour or so for my lunch break. Hunger overcame me last evening just ten minutes before knocking off... ended up rushing to McDonalds to grab some fries to keep me alive before dinner time. Unfortunately spilled the whole cup of lemon lime juice in the car... shoot!!! Damn that hunger of mine. Hey isn't that another symptom of pregnancy... ahahahahah... okay I shall stop making another wild guess. Been making alot of wild guesses for the past one week... but then again who knows right?
Monday 14 June 2004
Waiting for the Day to be Over
What a way to start a new day, a new week. Nothing seems to be going right since morning.
Realised that my one-month bonus wasn't credited into my account with my salary and neither was it reflected in my payslip. Accounts directed me to Human Resource... so now am waiting for the officer to give me a good reason for holding back the payment. I just couldn't figure the reason for it... but I have this nagging feeling that it isn't looking too good.
Damn!!!! I hate it whenever we are rushing for something... somewhere someone will sit on something. First its my boss then followed by Gerald Lee... as though it is some sort of standard operating procedure. He has been sitting on the Memo since last week and despite the chasing there is still no news from him. In the end I have to humble myself to continuously "beg" his secretary for an answer. She sounded pissed... but similarly I am pissed with her attitude as well. But what to do other than trying hard to bear with it. As always... I will be the one sandwiched between the Board and the Applicant. Why can't these people have a sense of urgency when the need arises??? Arrgghhh... if not for the regular working hours... I really cannot find a reason for liking this job.
There has been alot of news of miscarriages lately. Three forumers in the miscarriage support thread had recurrent miscarriages... all in a matter of less than 2 weeks. Another lady whom I got to know in the February 2004 bride thread lost her baby last Saturday. I can't help but wonder the percentage of recurrent miscarriages.
Speaking of which... today is exactly 2 months since we lost you angels. Time seems to be flying as though it was only yesterday... but during which alot of things had happened making it felt as though the days are crawling.
I can't wait for today to be over.
Realised that my one-month bonus wasn't credited into my account with my salary and neither was it reflected in my payslip. Accounts directed me to Human Resource... so now am waiting for the officer to give me a good reason for holding back the payment. I just couldn't figure the reason for it... but I have this nagging feeling that it isn't looking too good.
Damn!!!! I hate it whenever we are rushing for something... somewhere someone will sit on something. First its my boss then followed by Gerald Lee... as though it is some sort of standard operating procedure. He has been sitting on the Memo since last week and despite the chasing there is still no news from him. In the end I have to humble myself to continuously "beg" his secretary for an answer. She sounded pissed... but similarly I am pissed with her attitude as well. But what to do other than trying hard to bear with it. As always... I will be the one sandwiched between the Board and the Applicant. Why can't these people have a sense of urgency when the need arises??? Arrgghhh... if not for the regular working hours... I really cannot find a reason for liking this job.
There has been alot of news of miscarriages lately. Three forumers in the miscarriage support thread had recurrent miscarriages... all in a matter of less than 2 weeks. Another lady whom I got to know in the February 2004 bride thread lost her baby last Saturday. I can't help but wonder the percentage of recurrent miscarriages.
Speaking of which... today is exactly 2 months since we lost you angels. Time seems to be flying as though it was only yesterday... but during which alot of things had happened making it felt as though the days are crawling.
I can't wait for today to be over.
Friday 11 June 2004
The Straw that Broke the Camel's Back
This week is swooshing by really fast... that's good.
Finally stood up against my boss on Wednesday. I told her right in the face that I cannot work overtime and need to go off. I have no problems about working overtime but not when she is obviously failing to put in the efforts to clear her work on time. The one page memo was given to her last Friday morning and despite numerous reminders on Monday and Tuesday... she only got back to me with amendments ten minutes before my knock-off time on Wednesday.
Every time when I remind her that she needs to clear something urgent, her reply would be "tomorrow" or "later today". Got me really pissed with her this time round... the straw finally broke the camel's back. You guys should see the expression on her face when I told her that I cannot stay. Time for her to realise that the world doesn't revolve around her timing. If she can drop her work and leave the office before her official knock-off time just because she has some personal appointment despite the amount of work piling... I don't see the reason why I cannot leave. What's more... it is my official knock-off time.
After this episode... I seriously think it is time for me to keep a lookout for better opportunities. No real hurry... cause Daddy said that no way she can or will fire me for that but I believe that it might affect my appraisal for next year.
Haven't form an attachment (and doubt that I will) to the work, the place and the people here... so it should be easier for me to move on. But the thought of having to deal with changes and in the event if I should get pregnant again... it will be tough for any potential employers to even consider my application.
Finally stood up against my boss on Wednesday. I told her right in the face that I cannot work overtime and need to go off. I have no problems about working overtime but not when she is obviously failing to put in the efforts to clear her work on time. The one page memo was given to her last Friday morning and despite numerous reminders on Monday and Tuesday... she only got back to me with amendments ten minutes before my knock-off time on Wednesday.
Every time when I remind her that she needs to clear something urgent, her reply would be "tomorrow" or "later today". Got me really pissed with her this time round... the straw finally broke the camel's back. You guys should see the expression on her face when I told her that I cannot stay. Time for her to realise that the world doesn't revolve around her timing. If she can drop her work and leave the office before her official knock-off time just because she has some personal appointment despite the amount of work piling... I don't see the reason why I cannot leave. What's more... it is my official knock-off time.
After this episode... I seriously think it is time for me to keep a lookout for better opportunities. No real hurry... cause Daddy said that no way she can or will fire me for that but I believe that it might affect my appraisal for next year.
Haven't form an attachment (and doubt that I will) to the work, the place and the people here... so it should be easier for me to move on. But the thought of having to deal with changes and in the event if I should get pregnant again... it will be tough for any potential employers to even consider my application.
Saturday 5 June 2004
Rambling of Grumbles
Mummy has been having dreams throughout the night... can't quite remember most of them. But because of the endless dreams, I often wake up feeling extremely tired... sometimes even a little grouchy. Not too sure what's the reason but hoping that it will stop soon. Maybe its because I have been feeling stress??? Hmmm... nay... don't think I have been feeling any stress lately. Shall stop thinking about it... otherwise I am really giving myself stress.
Sometimes I wonder how my boss gets to where she is. She panics unnecessary (in local terms... we call her "not steady"), her sense of priorities sucks. She worries over the minor stuff but tries to push the responsibility when it is something major. She seems to have problems composing her thoughts... instructions are given in bits and pieces and half the time I have to try and guess what she said. Maybe she thinks we are mind-readers. She sits on her work... but I have become immune to that... cos the ball is in her court, if she is taking it easy why should I worry right? The one thing that really got on my nerves lately is that she seems to be taking me as an operator. She will buzz me for another colleague's extension even though she is sitting right infront of her laptop and having full access to the intranet. God!!!!
As like what Daddy said... sometimes when we work for such people, we need to close both eyes. I will go with that since he has lots more experience having to deal with Ronald.
Sometimes I wonder how my boss gets to where she is. She panics unnecessary (in local terms... we call her "not steady"), her sense of priorities sucks. She worries over the minor stuff but tries to push the responsibility when it is something major. She seems to have problems composing her thoughts... instructions are given in bits and pieces and half the time I have to try and guess what she said. Maybe she thinks we are mind-readers. She sits on her work... but I have become immune to that... cos the ball is in her court, if she is taking it easy why should I worry right? The one thing that really got on my nerves lately is that she seems to be taking me as an operator. She will buzz me for another colleague's extension even though she is sitting right infront of her laptop and having full access to the intranet. God!!!!
As like what Daddy said... sometimes when we work for such people, we need to close both eyes. I will go with that since he has lots more experience having to deal with Ronald.
Thursday 3 June 2004
Blue Black Ang Mo?
Feels like Monday today... guess that it is because of Vesak Day falling right in the middle of the week. But we had a fruitful Vesak Day... cos we manage to spend time with both families. Although it would have been great too if Daddy and Mummy had managed to stick to our original plan to go for a picnic... cos the weather wasn't too humid and with a bit of clouds and breeze.
Daddy is still keeping me in suspense. All I know is that my birthday pressie is something black, blue and white (Daddy said its a orh chee ang mo). The material is plastic for black and metallic for blue and white. Hmmm... I wonder...
My menstrual cycle started on 28 May as "predicted" by Dr. Lim. Load off my mind... at least my cycle and hormones are back to normal. But how I use to hate those days when my aunt comes by for a visit. Daddy and Mummy agreed to wait for another cycle before we start trying again.
Daddy is still keeping me in suspense. All I know is that my birthday pressie is something black, blue and white (Daddy said its a orh chee ang mo). The material is plastic for black and metallic for blue and white. Hmmm... I wonder...
My menstrual cycle started on 28 May as "predicted" by Dr. Lim. Load off my mind... at least my cycle and hormones are back to normal. But how I use to hate those days when my aunt comes by for a visit. Daddy and Mummy agreed to wait for another cycle before we start trying again.
