Saturday 27 November 2004
A Rose By Any Other Name...
Mummy & Daddy have started thinking of names for your baby brother/sister. For a brother, we had decided on Matthias. According to a baby's name website, this name is used in German and English. Its source is Matityah, a Hebrew name meaning "God's gift". For a sister, we had thought of Seline the last time. But watching TV the other day, the name Shervahn came up. Daddy thought this was rather unique. This name's (with Irish Gaelic usage) source is Jehane, a Norman French name meaning "God's grace". Mummy liked it too, so for now, we're going with this pair of names. Now, just counting down the months & weeks till we see him/her.
Thursday 25 November 2004
Perfectionism Can Be Imperfect Too
Looking at the date of the last blog entry is another reminder of how busy life has been... and the reminder that with every change in the life's direction... adjustment to expectations and daily routine are inevitable.
Attended an in-house workshop on competencies at work yesterday. Initially I had expected myself to sleep through it like most seminars and workshops... surprisingly the workshop was very insightful and kept me up from morning till late afternoon.
It started to dawn on me during the workshop that one of my biggest incompetence right now is the inability to learn on the fly... and the cause is due to me being a perfectionist and being adverse to risk. How true! Very often, I want to get things right even from the start... because I don't want to make myself look bad infront of others or disappoint myself. As a result, fear will engulf me whenever I'm faced with a new situation... but will quickly jump in to try and solve the issue without fully appreciating the cause... just so that I can live up to being efficient. At the end of it... I make mistakes... taking me even farther away from being perfect.
Attended an in-house workshop on competencies at work yesterday. Initially I had expected myself to sleep through it like most seminars and workshops... surprisingly the workshop was very insightful and kept me up from morning till late afternoon.
It started to dawn on me during the workshop that one of my biggest incompetence right now is the inability to learn on the fly... and the cause is due to me being a perfectionist and being adverse to risk. How true! Very often, I want to get things right even from the start... because I don't want to make myself look bad infront of others or disappoint myself. As a result, fear will engulf me whenever I'm faced with a new situation... but will quickly jump in to try and solve the issue without fully appreciating the cause... just so that I can live up to being efficient. At the end of it... I make mistakes... taking me even farther away from being perfect.
Saturday 13 November 2004
Renewed Faith
Saw the baby again today... and the form of the head, arms and legs. It was renewed faith for us to know that the baby is doing well.
The baby is measured at 19.8mm today... that is about ten times bigger than two weeks. The expected due date will be around 20 to 23 June next year... pretty close to Mummy's birthday. I really hope I get this big birthday present next year.
To me... we had crossed a big hurdle today... because we lost you angels when you were 8 weeks. Knowing that your little brother/sister has passed the mark... even though by just a few days... I am very contented for now. I know that my level of confidence might take another nose-dive one of these days... so am looking forward to the next visit on 4 December to regain my faith again.
Thank you for watching over us and helping us get this far.
Good night... and rest well.
The baby is measured at 19.8mm today... that is about ten times bigger than two weeks. The expected due date will be around 20 to 23 June next year... pretty close to Mummy's birthday. I really hope I get this big birthday present next year.
To me... we had crossed a big hurdle today... because we lost you angels when you were 8 weeks. Knowing that your little brother/sister has passed the mark... even though by just a few days... I am very contented for now. I know that my level of confidence might take another nose-dive one of these days... so am looking forward to the next visit on 4 December to regain my faith again.
Thank you for watching over us and helping us get this far.
Good night... and rest well.
Friday 12 November 2004
What an irony...
Have been so tied up with my new job and new house that I am almost losing the momentum. I think I have been too used to the slow pace of life for the last one year... so much so that I am feeling a little overwhelmed having to handle all the major changes at the same time.
No time to read the news, no time to check my emails and no time for everything else. I can only hope that the dust will settle down soon.
It is such an irony for me to say this now... I have been wanting for a change for so long but now I wish for a routine.
Life is full of contradictions at times.
No time to read the news, no time to check my emails and no time for everything else. I can only hope that the dust will settle down soon.
It is such an irony for me to say this now... I have been wanting for a change for so long but now I wish for a routine.
Life is full of contradictions at times.
Friday 5 November 2004
Happy Birthday...
Today is your birthday, but for Mummy & Daddy, it is bittersweet... While your little brother or sister is growing inside Mummy, we cannot forget that today was to be the day that you would come into this world.
I remember when we first found out that Mummy was pregnant with you guys and how happy we were; the first time we saw you on the ultrasound, first as one, then as two; and the last time we saw you, that fateful day in April...
You guys will always have a special place in our hearts. We miss you so much... I love you... Take care... Happy Birthday...
I remember when we first found out that Mummy was pregnant with you guys and how happy we were; the first time we saw you on the ultrasound, first as one, then as two; and the last time we saw you, that fateful day in April...
You guys will always have a special place in our hearts. We miss you so much... I love you... Take care... Happy Birthday...
Monday 1 November 2004
:)
Went back for a second checkup last Saturday... at last we saw the sac and a lively heartbeat. Haven't felt so relieved in the longest time... the wait for our turn was torturing. Now we are looking forward to the next appointment in two weeks time.
Mummy started work today... as usual nothing much. Hoping that things will settle down soon... the feeling of a freshie is something not quite enjoyable.
Okie... time to go have my dinner.
Mummy started work today... as usual nothing much. Hoping that things will settle down soon... the feeling of a freshie is something not quite enjoyable.
Okie... time to go have my dinner.
