Victimising By Feeling Victimised

Conflicts are abundant everywhere... between spouses, partners, parents and children, co-workers, friends... the cyber-community is no exception and I was just as guilty.

After having taken a step back (though it is still as entertaining just reading the quirky and witty replies as a bystander) I find myself being able to look at the situation with a different perspective. The one who calls for tolerance is just as intolerant... otherwise he or she wouldn't have voiced out his or her displeasure. The one who cried foul is just as underhanded... otherwise he or she wouldn't have turned to the higher authority, rallied for support from other fellow forumers or even register additional nicknames to create a false impression that he or she is being supported. The one who advocates open-mindedness is just as narrow-minded otherwise he or she would have taken other's opinion graciously. When we are too engulfed with our own emotion and opinions we have of others... our judgment will be clouded inadvertently. To top it off... we hold dear to the belief that there is nothing wrong with our judgment... (or is it just an attempt to make ourselves feel better because we are "better people").

The ongoing episode in the forum came at the right time... it gave a knock on my head... telling me that it is high time I snap out of it. The recent feeling of being "victimised" by the situation is nothing but self-doing. I had "victimised" myself by feeling "victimised". The sour feeling is soured further because of my failure to pull myself out fast. I have been too enveloped in the dissatisfaction I have for my job. Nothing is perfect and I have promised myself long ago not to allow my work to take the lead... I have forgotten about that promise. I should be the overall-in-charge... I should be the one calling the shots.

Time to channel my time and energy into better areas of life. We will be collecting the keys to the apartment next week... time to get down to work to do up the place. I'm sure I will be able to find other items to fill up my to-do list ;)