Getting a Positive and Staying Positive

Haven't really had time to enjoy the house since moving in... because the evenings have been filled with household chores and getting the place organised. Hopefully, we will get into the rhythm soon and once the momentum is set... we should be right on track.

After a long wait... we are finally see a big fat positive on the pregnancy test kit. However... Mummy is going to be superstitious this time round and keep the news to ourselves and family until we are past the first trimester.

Had an outburst last night... not because I was overjoyed but because of guilt. Felt bad that somehow the excitement is not as strong as the first time round... not too sure what the real reason is. Maybe because of the fear that history may repeat itself... maybe because we are prepared for the news this time round but was caught unexpected the other time... or maybe because of the hormones.

Whatever the reason could be... all we hope for is that the little one will stay strong and not let us down. As for us... we must give him or her all the confidence we can.

(Oh did I mention that I had a dream few days back? Dreamt that I had a son. The dream was so vivid that I can still recall the face. Let's see how true the dream is... only time can tell.)