I Want Out

It was an extremely lousy weekend for Mummy. Daddy's mum did something unreasonable that sent Mummy into a rage and I ended up having a big arguement with Daddy. Not his fault but he was the nearest object that I could vent my frustration on. Mummy was so upset that I took a really long walk after that and ended up with a sunburn.
I shall leave the exact details to my memory... whatever it is she is still Daddy's mum and your granny. What's between her and I shall stay that way... nobody else is to get involved. As her daughter-in-law... she probably doesn't care how I feel about her but for her son and grandchildren I am sure she will still hold them close to her heart. Like I always tell Daddy... it is just not the same.

To dampen my mood even further, Baby Matty wasn't sleeping well again last night waking up at a 2-hour interval. Each time he woke up it will take me at least 30 minutes to rock him back to sleep again. I lost my patience yet again. I don't know how long I can keep this going. It has been 8 months and I have no idea when he will learn to sleep through the night. This is taking a toll on Mummy both physically and emotionally. We have done and change what we can possibly think of but nothing seems to work. I am at my wits end! How I wish he can talk and tell me what's wrong.

If you should ever come across anyone saying how much they enjoy parenthood... they got to be either lying or only telling the half-truth. No doubt that parenthood has its many joy... it can be equally tough and frustrating... resentment will set in every now and then. Daddy who use to tell me to be patient is starting to lose his mind now that I wake him up to help me out. Talk is cheap... when you go through it... you will understand.